Something nudging me woke me from my sleep. I groaned and rolled over. “Uhhhhh! What?” I said, my eyes still closed. “Syd, you were doing it again,” whispered Lloyd, even though everyone was now awake, and snickering. “Huh? Wha--? “Syd, you really need to learn how to control your freaky psychic powers,” Interrupted Zelos.
Ever since I told my friends that I had the ability to read minds, they referred to my abilities as my “powers.” But It wasn’t just reading minds that I could do, I could also send messages through my mind, like for example, I could send whatever I was thinking to whoever I wanted, and that person and I could have a private conversation through just thinking back and forth to each other. I could send the same message to multiple people at once as well. I could also “control people” with my mind. I don’t really want to go in to any specific details, but if I wanted some one to run into a TREE, I could make them.
Lately though, I’ve been having issues keeping my thoughts secret from everyone while I’m sleeping, and my barrier, as I so call it, slips away from me, and everyone can see what I’m dreaming. And as you can probably tell, that issue just occurred.
“Aww dammnit.” A sigh. “What was I dreaming of this time?” More snickers. “Some pretty weird shit, lemme tell you that,” Zelos said again. This time I sat up and opened my eyes, and looked at everyone. They were all trying not to think about it, so I swore to myself again. “You’re all getting really good at channeling me out, you know that,” I hissed. Zelos, Sheena, Raine, Genis, Presea, Colette, and even Regal were trying to hold back laughter. The only people NOT laughing were Kratos and Lloyd, whom where blushing bright red. Then Kratos thought to me, “ You were thinking pretty hard about what I told last night before you fell asleep weren’t you?” Huh? I tried thinking back to the previous night.
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“Hey, thank you for helping me out back there Lloyd,” I said. He blushed and said, ”No problem Sydney.” Kratos lay close to the campfire, his eyes closed, though I knew he wasn’t asleep. Ever since I found out that Kratos was Lloyd’s real father, he and I vowed to keep it a secret from Lloyd until Kratos thought it was the right time to let him know. Kratos wasn’t very good with emotions, and socializing with people, so to Lloyd he was a stubborn ass-hole, who was a better, more skilled fighter than him, and loved to rub it in his face. Though that wasn’t true at all, and Kratos did love his son immensely, he kept the right distance from everyone, except me. He was fascinated with my ability to know what he was thinking, and we had “regular” mind conversations. Kratos was more like my father figure than my father ever was to me, and truth be told, I did love him as my father. Lloyd handed me a cup of hot cocoa made by the white haired mage, Genis. “Want some, Syd,” Lloyd said. “Yeah thanks!” I took a sip from the cup, and the chocolaty liquid warmed me up all over. “He’s perfect for you, you know?” I nearly choked in my drink, coughing a lot of what I just drank on the ground. “Oh crap, Sydney are you okay?!” Said a very concerned Lloyd. I nodded yes at him weakly, and peered around to see who “thought” that to me. Kratos, whom was sprawled on the ground with his arms behind his head as a pillow had one eye open, looking over at me like he was winking. “What? Are you out of your mind man?” I thought to him. ”Just think about it for a second, you two are always together, whether it’s during battle, or while we’re traveling. You both always have an excuse to be together.” I gave him the look, like, ARE YOU CRAZY, and Lloyd, who was aware by now that was were having a conversation looked at both of our faces, trying to decode our thoughts. “Um…it’s LLOYD!! Seriously Kratos!” I looked at him hard. “Well just think about it Sydney.” I looked at the ground and shook my head. “Okay WHAT’S going on you two? What are we missing here,” said Zelos. Everyone in the group was looking back and forth between Kratos and I, aware finally that we were talking. “S’ nothing. I’m just going to sleep now, so.. G’night everyone.” I lay down real fast and set down my mug next to me. Everyone shrugged and said their good nights for that night.
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“Wait what???” I said, coming back to reality. Finally Lloyd sent me the images I was dreaming, to me, but without looking at my face, still beet red. There was an image of Lloyd and I sitting on the shore of the beach close by. I was leaning on his shoulder, and we were watching the sunset. *Oh crap* Then, Lloyd tilted my head up and he leaned in and kissed me passionately. “Love ya Syd,” he said to me. “Love ya too, Lloyd,” I said. Then we watched the rest of the sunset. End of dream. “Ohhhh CRAP!!! Crappity crappity crap!!!!!!” I moaned. I turned redder than Lloyd and Kratos, and kept shaking my head. “Ah dammnit, ahhuuum sorry bout that…uh everyone…” I was so embarrassed, and everyone right then, started hooting with laughter, but us three. I couldn’t sit there any longer, or I was going to die. I shot up from where I was sitting and started walking away from the campsite, not wanting to face any of them anymore. “Awww Syd it’s not that big of a deal hun! Come back please! We’re just kidding with you!” Said Sheena, but I ignored her and continued to walk. I walked all the way to the edge of the forest that was nearby, and I sat against one of the large trees and began crying. Of all the things in my life that I should have cried for, like my real parents abandoning me because they didn’t want a freak as a daughter, or when Genis nearly shattered the bones in my arm while we were training, I never cried! But now I was crying because what Kratos had told me was true, and that I did love Lloyd, and because of my stupid lack of control for my damn powers, he probably knew I loved him, and he probably would never love a freak like me, and I couldn’t ever have him, and I couldn’t bear this. I felt like I was going to puke. There was no way I could go back to the group. I was going to have to stay there all night, while I cried my eyes out. I heard someone approach me. “Hey Syd? You doin’ okay?” Said a familiar voice, but I shunned him away, by turning my back to him. “Please leave me alone, Lloyd.” He ignored my request, and sat by me. I tried to stop my continuous shuddering, but nothing helped. Then, he did something that really surprised me; he wrapped his arms around me, and rocked slowly, trying to calm me down. “W-what are you doing?” I said, alarmed. “I hate it when you’re sad, it kills me like you wouldn’t know. And, I just want you to know that I don’t want you to be embarrassed, either.” I wiped my eyes, ”So you don’t care that a freak like me loves you?” I tried not to look at his face, or read his thoughts. “You are not a freak! You’re the most beautiful, amazing, talented girl I know, and anyone who says you’re a freak, well, screw them, because it’s not true, and…I do love you.” I gasped and looked at him, and he had the most sincere look on his face. “It’s true Sydney. I really do.” Then he leaned in slowly, and kissed me. And that’s all it took to reassure me. I knew then, that he loved me, and I was glad, that he didn’t care that I had these abilities, and that I didn’t need to worry about what the others of our group thought. Kratos was right.